Two steps forward and one step back. Sometimes it's more like three, but who's counting? I am. Today is a step back day. Or at least it very well could be. Addiction is a bitch. I named this blog A Mortal's Poison because if I were actually a proficient writer, it would be the name of my book and it would be all about the poisons in human existence. There is something that haunts each and every one of us. For me, it's multiple somethings. Although I have recovered from most of them, there are days that are harder than others. I believe there is a huge misconception about addictions. There is no difference between them. Some kill you faster, but addiction does what it always will: destroy you. And it doesn't even matter if you realize it or not. It will still haunt you. I am finally starting to get my life together and I can still feel that invisible pull. It will always be there. And no matter what God I worship, what science tells me, what drugs try to help, it will never ever ever ever ever ever go away. So today I am here writing because if I write, the pull feels a little weaker. I wasn't even planning on writing today either. Damn it. I was having such a good week, too.
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What I've always wanted to say
AuthorD.A. Crane. |